Window to the self

I crack my window when I write, even in the winter, in the dead of night, the sounds of the city soothe me, the sounds of the city guide me down into my cellar of self reflection, exactly where I need to be in order to examine the shadowed recesses, to peer down into the hidden places where no light nor exposure exists, where things go to remain unobserved. These are the very things I’m trying to discover, secrets, the crawling, slithering forms of the mind, this is where they live and the open window on the wall behind me helps cast light upon those forms to send them scurrying, to upset their patterns of concealment. I don’t know why or how the sounds of the city can bring me such clarity during my ritualized introspections. Wind, insects, vehicles, midnight pedestrians, distant sirens, rain, gunshots, screams, howls, silence, all of it like some cipher upon the door to those sacred inner spaces, allowing my entry.